Finding my voice. Using my voice. Loving my voice. A Journey

Friday, January 28, 2011

Caught in the Muddle

Caught in the muddle
of fighting and feeling
of anger and pain
of breaking and healing.

Don't know where to turn
or how even to be.
Unsure of the path;
nowhere feels free.

It's one of those seasons
one of those years,
where I'm forced to dependance
and cleansed by tears.

Life feels so messy
there's pain all around.
I long for the Kingdom
and listen for its sound.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Face to the Sky

It's raining.
........It's Seattle.
Big drops today.
Clouds without form.
Just a soaked blanket of gray
no longer able to hold back the water.

I try to protect myself;
to go inside;
get out of the rain;
hide from the clouds.

I can't see clearly through the clouds
or through the vast unknown of my future.
It's bigger than me.
Out of my control.
-and out of this churning obscurity
spills the drops of mystery.
into my present
onto my skin.

Will I hide inside
grasping at the sure foundation of the controlled?
Or will I step into the elements
allow my skin to absorb the rain
and turn to face the sky?


Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Alignment

Body.
Mind.
Soul.
Spirit.
............Me.

Layers of being.
All present.
All mine.
I am one.
yet feel scattered.

My body's tired, cold, but able.
My mind is restless, mischievous, bored.
My soul is confused, desiring, and frustrated.
My spirit is weak, hidden, longing.

How do I bring into alignment all these parts of self?
there is power in alignment.
there is healing in alignment.
I gain my sense of being in alignment.

Jesus promised life to the full.
and I want to live into that
with all my being.
But I believe Jesus will meet me where I am
full or not
and draw me unto life...

..................all of me.
Body.
Mind.
Soul.
Spirit.


Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Sustain the Longing

Christmas is over and done.
at least this year's celebration of it.

We remember the fulfillment of a promise.
The Messiah came!
after being suspended so long
in the hopes of His people.

The longing was met.
There was no fasting while the Bridegroom was present.
For centuries the Israelites had gazed at the heavens
with eyes of hope
with hungry hearts
with groaning spirits.
Israel sustained this longing for thousands of years.

Again we find ourselves in such a season.
Advent is not just a season,
but an expanse
amid our narrative with God.
For the bridegroom is once again absent
And now we wait, gazing at the heavens
with eyes of hope
with hungry hearts
with groaning spirits
ever and anon
until the light once more shines in the darkness.

Our eyes get strained from squinting into darkness.
Our hearts we fill with junk food, that fills but doesn't satisfy.
Our spirits we silence in the groaning, for the sound is unpleasant to bear.

Yet, longing sustained is our constant season.
feel the emptiness within
groan for the light remembered.
This is not a state of striving.
This is a state of being.
For who we are is not who we were designed to be.
God has set eternity in the hearts of humanity
and the Kingdom, though come, is yet coming.

So we are in constant waiting.
constant longing.
constant groaning.
not to be quelled until that much anticipated day.
Sustain the Longing.
Align your spirit with your body and soul and mind.

God came through once.
He will come through again.
Let your light shine.